I need to stop writing for a while as I'm suffering from a 'bleeding heart' that is blocking my inspiration. My suffering relates to various losses (without details) within my vacuum. For some elaboration, please see Doubt, Fear, Hope & Love – a 2025 update. Blues music (eg, The King's Blues Club) is helping in relieving my sadness & sorrow. Bleeding Heart...
My mother (90) realizes she must accept her change of moving to a nursing home. We know there's no alternative. Nevertheless, her acceptance (ie, of major Change or grief) is hard because her unhappiness still wins. For weeks, she is in stage 3 of the Kübler-Ross model, being Bargaining: My 2025 blog: The (in)evitability of acceptance In my view, she still...
Ageing was never an issue for me. I’m still wondering why that is changing. My mother turned 90 last year. My father died in 1994 at 61. Last week, I turned 65. In my view, ageing is a blessing in disguise, even despite declining health. I suppose that (my) ageing is more visible to me than before. Probably, my eyes “opened” after falling from an electric bike...
Last week, I finally received closure with someone. I lost my anger with that person but gained (brief) sadness. For me, that sadness relates to losing Hope. It's over now. In other situations, the price of closure may relate to Doubt, Fear or Love. Hence, my blog title: Closure comes with a price. In my view, I wasn't looking for closure. I was looking to protect...
Whenever we look at things from a (long) distance, we are generally just observers, who do not judge. Our attitude changes when we focus on the details of what’s happening. Suddenly, we must judge. Relevant history is suddenly deemed irrelevant. Recently, I heard an interesting related remark on TV in the crime series Lewis, (#8.2 in IMDb; see Se7Ep6). Detective...
A friend says that she envies me for protecting my heart so well. Indeed, it seems that I'm not hurt by the one(s) whom I love the most. Late 2010, I decided to stop my heart from bleeding by building an imaginary sarcophagus around it. Most of the year, it indeed helps me soldiering on. My friend is slowly copying my solution because she fears that the hurting will...
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