My title is borrowed from the 1768 poem Ode on a Distant Prospect of Eton College by Thomas Gray (1716-1771). I suppose those words express what I've been feeling for some time. I've been entering the doubt-fear phase of our (eternal) cycle of Doubt, Fear, Hope & Love. This poem is famous for its last two lines of its final verse. I have added the third-last...
Doubt Fear Hope Love
Let it flow
28 Nov, 2022
Something broke inside me during the trip back from Germany. Initially, I assumed it was due to the prior night without sleep. Slowly, it dawned upon me that she and I lack a future together. I suppose that it's fair to say that our chemistry has slowly vanished until it was gone. I have been slow to accept the above. Probably because I was in denial. I preferred my...
Black holes and their ring of light
25 Nov, 2022
Some people are like black holes, including a ring of light (eg, Astronomy, Quanta, Space). I suppose that ring of light is what attracts us to them, like a moth to a flame. Yet, their black hole consumes all our energy and our positivity. Recently, I was - again - reminded of this. It's time to say adieu. My realization above is hurting me. It seems that I need to...
It’s better to smile than to get angry
23 Nov, 2022
Recently, I had my bi-annual dental (hygienist) appointment. At my arrival, I received a checklist with some 30 health questions and was asked to complete it and sign off. After reviewing those questions, I insisted on their explanation. I'm still waiting for it. I was sent home because it was a must. That incident spoiled my afternoon. I hate being told that I must...
Would writing a book be wasting my time?
14 Nov, 2022
Last month, I ordered and read the latest J.K. Rowling detective novel: The Ink Black Heart. That book has more than a thousand pages. Once again, I failed the whodunnit. Interestingly, she shares her thoughts on inspiration on the top of page 228 (hardcover). Her and my thoughts align. Despite having written almost 3,000 blogs during 2014-2022, I have no idea how...
What if you solve a what-if question?
23 Sep, 2022
Last week, I solved a 'what-if' question (eg, my 2016 blog). I have mixed feelings about its answer. I should be glad but I'm not. Now, I know that I escaped a bad and costly decision. My subconscious "knew" the reasons for not pursuing it. My conscious ignored it. External circumstances forced me to give up. Perhaps, the problem was love. I'm not talking about...
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