I could blame my coffee machine that broke down after some 10+ years of service. I could blame our rainy summer weather. I doubt it’s about coffee or sunshine. I suppose it’s far deeper. A recent road trip to Germany lifted my spirits. A lack of hotel sleep made matters worse, however.
Actually, I do not (yet) know my reason(s) for feeling listless and bored. As a result, I have lost my urge for writing. Today, I’m making an exception. Writing about the things that are bugging me, usually helps me to get over them. It’s my tried, tested and proven solution.
I’ve considered a formal notification that my brain is on vacation but I waived that thought. Usually, my inspiration returns quickly. This time feels different. I do not believe that I have nothing left to write about. To the contrary even because my list of possible blog topics is still expanding.
I suppose my listlessness relates to the cycle of Doubt, Fear, Hope & Love and in particular hope – this time. I still wonder about the object and/or subject of my hope. I have to restrain myself from buying new stuff (ie, objects), although a new coffee machine is very high on my list.
I have considered whether the dark side might be closing in on me – again. Rest assured: it’s not. I do know that it’s always lurking and murking somewhere around me. I have a tried, tested and proven solution against it: my faith.
Possibly, my (lack of) hope is with respect to a person or persons (ie, subjects). In that case, I have “to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference”. That quote is from the Serenity Prayer by American theologian Reinhold Niebuhr.
The Occam’s razor principle (eg, “the simplest explanation is usually the best one”) would, however, suggest that I’m suffering from a seasonal affective disorder, which is “a mood disorder  commonly, but not always, associated with the reductions in total daily sunlight hours .”
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