I feel happy. This comes as a surprise because I didn’t expect it. Far from it. I expected that my choice / decision would be negative as many things went wrong before. I supposed that it was not meant to be and/or not meant to happen. It’s still hard to believe that my assessment was so wrong. I’m still not sure which part of my radar was off.
The decision wasn’t entirely mine as I was pushed by a friend. Without her, I would probably have given up. I trust her judgement though and let myself be pushed and shoved. A funny side thought said that I could always put the blame on her – for my failure. That would have been a nice running joke between us. Hence, a large upside and a small downside.
She approached me on the very first day that my dating profile went online, which was about two months ago. She’s from the same country as my friend: Belgium. I wasn’t too happy about that as our borders were closed last year by roadblocks and/or police postings. Apparently, governments assume that you can stop a virus at the border.
The response to my dating profile was overwhelming and even caused a technical failure. Unfortunately, I let my attention slip away, while answering her message and used someone else’s first name. Only four of six letters were okay. I did listen to that little voice in the back of my mind. I couldn’t find my mistake though as I was looking at the wrong part of my message.
She was really upset with me and we didn’t talk for weeks. About a month later, she replied to an update of my dating profile. It took us more than 2 weeks to set up a simple meeting. It was like Murphy’s law: anything that can go wrong, will go wrong. I suppose that Murphy’s law may have made me consider that she and I were not meant to be.
Probably, that thought never occurred to me because I have grown accustomed to failures in my dating life, and even to such an extent that I expected them to happen again.
“Happiness doesn’t always come from a pursuit. Sometimes it comes when we least expect it.” A quote from the Dalai Lama (b.1935), “a title given by the Tibetan people to the foremost spiritual leader of the Gelug or “Yellow Hat” school of Tibetan Buddhism”
Radar Love (1973) by Golden Earring
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