Yesterday, my girlfriend asked me a simple question: “What do you want?” I had no other answer than “Nothing” or “I do not know”. There is nothing that I must have. There are – of course – things that are nice-to-haves, like another house, a new car to start travelling, and perhaps even a dog. My 2017 rent-a-dog still recognizes me – with love (my 2017 blog).
There are still things that I must have, like clothing, food, heating, housing, and water. These items are part of my Needs. Nowadays, my Wants seem to be absent. I still believe in my writing, although it’s mostly part of my Awakening. Everyone is in a different stage of my concept of Needs, Wants, Beliefs & Awakening.
For some time, I have noticed a conflict in myself. A part of me is still an addicted consumer, who wants to buy new stuff. That part of me always hits a brick wall because I do not need that new stuff. I am happy and satisfied with what I still have.
The above situation is causing a problem with my relocation. I cannot seem to make up my mind. As far as I’m aware, I have never had that problem before in my life. As a result, I am still delaying my decision because I do not believe that my want is already a need.
In and of itself, my relocation is built on sound arguments: arbitrage (ie, sell high, buy low), climate change (ie, global sea level rise), and urbanization (ie, too crowded). However, in a conflict situation emotional arguments may easily win from rational ones. I really like where I live right now because it’s almost perfect.
To be honest with you, my reconnaissance did reveal a new near perfect place to live. I even found a realtor whom I seem to trust to sell my place. Nevertheless, I still didn’t decide to start the selling process. Also see my 2017 blog: Decisions. Perhaps, it’s procrastination (my 2015 blog). Most likely, I do not believe in the actions that I should undertake.
As a consequence of my indecision, I have been revisiting my earlier considerations: a foreign relocation, an apartment (rather than a house), travelling and writing, and working. Most of these earlier considerations are gone for a reason.
The only answer to the question above is: “I’m looking for something to believe in”. This answer has a lot to do with my other concept: Faith, Beliefs & Willpower. Without beliefs, it’s difficult to find the willpower to execute decisions. Having faith in your beliefs makes them lasting.
“Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle.” A quote from the 2005 Stanford speech by Steve Jobs (1955-2011). Note: italic markings in quote by LO.
Something to Believe in (1987) by Clannad featuring Bruce Hornsby
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I’ve been willing and strong all along
Through chilling times
In a sea of heartbreak
Where you give and take
I won’t give in to promises
Until I find something to believe in
To believe in
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